I am not really sure how I am doing. My weight is stable at around 13s5lb in the mornings however I drank on Friday, Sat, Sun and last night, I've been eating chocolate and peanuts etc but working like billio to keep it off. I am focussing again today. I am destroying fruit bowls at an alarming rate, 7 pears before lunch yesterday.

So, really confusing. I will have lost weight at weigh in tomorrow but only just I think.

I am also still finding it hard to cope around my Dad leaving. I have tried approaching it from every different angle and I always come up with the same answer. He took a rational and considered decision to have very little further to do with my life ever. He does expect interactions to be on his terms in the future and I have inherited his responsibilities towards his mother. I still want nothing further to do with him but I am tempering this as my brother is likely to want to come back to the UK sometime and I don't want to lose contact with him.

It is still very difficult.