Right, things are getting really difficult. Last weeks weight loss was 6lb again and that takes me to 14s 6lb on the dot. When I weigh in the mornings I am at 14s 1lb. i am where I want to be and I am starting the re-introduction of food etc on Thursday.
For the last 3 days I have been crying out for a decent scotch and a hand full of cashew nuts. This is my body playing tricks on me but I just want to feel like a human being again. Lighterlife literature talks about you failing and learning from it. i haven't cheated but I desperately want to. My wife is even encouraging me! She says that she wants the old me back. In my head I know that if I fail I am likely to put the weight back on, my heart just wants something nice. The other remaining bloke on the diet had 5 pints of lager last week and still lost 5lb. Yesterday marks 8 weeks since I had a drink.
I really do not know what to do, I have been trying to keep myself occupied when I have these feelings consequently I tied 14 flies last night! The fucking lighterlife book shows an example of a food diary for the first week listing 4 bisbuits and a large scotch, it circles them saying that it was wrong to cheat.
Arrrrrrggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
On a more positive note I went to Gloucester today to see the mighty Bath RFC win the European challenge shield. I spent the whole first have visibly shivering because I had no calaries in me.
Oh and:
AAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh
